Pregnant (3 page)

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              “Dammit Imani.” My little cousin just spit up on my brand new white silk blouse. I had no choice but to go clean it off; or at least attempt to. The bathroom upstairs needed to be repaired so the one down the hall from the kitchen is the one I had to use. Even though the music was loud I still heard voices in the kitchen having a very passionate whisper fight. I guess who ever they were, they really didn't want anyone to hear what they were discussing. I could see the shadows using a lot of hand movements to illustrate the fact that they were serious about what they were saying. I immediately tuned in once I heard the name Jordan.

“You need to fucking tell her the truth Jordan. She deserves to know.” I heard my sister’s voice.

“No you need to chill the fuck out. You have a man. Why the fuck are you trying to pin that damn baby on me?” Jordan questioned her.

“I'm not trying to do shit. All I'm saying is that you and I both know that there is a possibility that the baby might be yours.” Synovia said in a harsh tone

“Yeah but we also know that it might not be.” He said.

By now my hand was squeezing the life out of the door knob. It was itching to beat the fuck out of one of them. How could they do this to me? I pushed the door all the way open letting my presence be known to the both of them. We all just stood there in complete silence starring at each other.

“What's going on?” I heard Malcolm say over my shoulder but my mouth didn't bother to utter a single word. I just shook my head and walked away.
“Baby wait.” Jordan yelled-----.

Present Day

I was so stupid. The same night that I found out that he'd slept with my sister I was completely heart broken. How could someone that you love so much do something so cruel? I know this all sounds crazy given the situation that I am in but this is how I felt at the time. All I could think about was how they both betrayed me. I obviously wasn't doing something right if he had to fuck my sister. I didn't know exactly how many times they'd slept together but all I knew was that I wanted and needed him in my life. I couldn't just leave like that.
I moved out for a while so that we could have some space from each other. We were back together but the relationship wasn't the same. I decided to take him back after he begged and apologized so much but until synovia’s baby was born, I couldn't be with him the way that I wanted to. Two whole months later we found out that the baby was in fact his.

I just hated the way that he looked at his daughter and the way that he and synovia acted towards each other as if they'd done nothing wrong. That was supposed to be mine. We were going to get married, settle down, and have children. But instead he was forever connected to my sister. No matter what he was always going to have to be in her life because of the fact that they had a child together. Speaking of getting married, Jordan and I were together for another year before we finally set a date. I had everything I ever wanted; but why did I feel so empty? Why did I feel as if things weren't going as planned? I just couldn't go through with it at all. I ended up leaving him at the altar and never looking back. Once I packed my bags I prayed and hoped that I would never see him again. 

I even changed my number so that he couldn't reach me. I just felt out of place and I knew that he still wasn't being faithful. Several females kept calling my phone telling me how they had my man and how he was going to leave me for them. They’d even say how he ate them out with the same lips that he kisses me with. Some just came right out and said how he fucks them every day when I think he's really out working. I questioned him and he said that they were just hating on the "bond" that we had and how they wanted to be in my shoes but I didn't believe him. I even think that Princess slept with him because every time they were around each other, it was always some sort of weird tension floating around in the air. Before you say anything, I didn't sleep with Gino to get back at her. I just fell for the wrong man at the wrong time. But anyways; Jordan is a thing from the past. A past that I never wanted to dig up but now here he is in the flesh.

I couldn't even stand being in the same facility as him. The thought alone made my skin crawl a tad bit. A man that I haven't seen in a numerous amount of years has now come back to basically haunt me. I had to do it. I had to leave.

“Excuse me.” I excused myself as I attempted to walk around Jordan and the girl he called baby who I'm guessing is his
girlfriend.

“Ki-Ki.” He called my name but I sped up my walk. I didn't expect for him to follow me to my car. I tried to pull my keys out as fast as I could but he grabbed my arm and spun me around. “We need to talk Kiara.” Jordan put his arms on both sides of me blocking me so that I wasn't able to move. I could see his girlfriend glaring at the two of us with her arms folded from the window inside Wendy's.

“Get the fuck off of me. We have nothing to discuss.”

“Oh so it's like that now?” He questioned with a distorted face.

“It's been that way. Maybe if you knew how to keep your dick in your pants we would still be together.” I said spitefully hoping he’d get the point.

“I'm----.”

“You what? I hope you're not going to say that you're sorry because quite frankly I'm tired of hearing all the excuses and apologies that your sorry ass has to say.” I pushed him out of my way. “Oh and by the way, how’s Synovia and the baby? You know. The baby that y’all had when y’all were fucking behind my back.”

He sucked his teeth and I saw his jaw clench. “I found out that she wasn't mine.” He stated.

“Oh really. I guess Malcolm was happy then.”

“It's not his either.” He said looking me directly in the eyes.

“Well I guess that's what both of y’all get for fucking that stupid ass hoe in the first place. I'm surprised your dick ain't fall off.”

“Man Kiara cut the bull shit. We need to talk.”

I pointed over Jordan’s shoulder. “Talk to your girl. She's headed this way.”

His girlfriend started going off and Jordan got a whole ear-full of it. I slightly chuckled and entered my car.

“I knew I should have just gone to the drive-thru.” I said to myself. 

I ordered some pizza hut so that by the time I got home it would be there. But little did I know it wasn't the only thing there waiting for me. I found Gino sitting on my porch smoking a blunt; and an eviction notice taped neatly to the door.

Chapter 5 (Kiara)

“So.” Gino said waiting for my response.

“So what?” I repeated. I tried walking past Gino but he put his arm up completely stopping me. I tripped and damn near fell down two steps on the porch when he forcefully shoved me. I readjusted my clothes once I caught my balance. I was not about to let him push up on me again. I just got rid of that black eye. I didn't need another one.

“Man quit fucking acting dumb. You know I don't like that beating around the bush bull shit.” He stated while sucking his teeth.

“I don't know what you're talking about. But I do know that you need to get off my porch. Oh my bad----I forgot. Because of you I have no porch. I don't even have a house. Seeing as how you didn't pay the rent like you said you would."

Gino slightly chuckled. "What the fuck did you expect me to do after you pulled that stunt?"
"What stunt Gino? You and I were fucking. When two people fuck without using condoms then it's possible for the girl to get pregnant. I never tried to trap you if that's what you're thinking. You know what; fuck you and fuck your money. I don't need you. You ain’t shit but a dog. I'm surprised you ain't get down on all fours and bark like a dog yet."

"Who the fuck you think you talking to?" He grabbed me by my throat and pulled me closer to him. "You want to repeat that for me?" He questioned.

"Gino stop. I can't-----breathe."

"That's what I thought." He threw me on the ground and then hovered over me while I tried to catch my breath. "Did you or did you not do what the fuck I told you to do?"

I hurriedly shook my head up and down to answer his question while tears escaped my eyes. I knew I was lying but hell he didn't know that. He lifted me up by my hair and made me look him in the eyes. He leaned in to kiss me but I turned my head. He slightly chuckled. "Oh and by the way; I paid for that damn car too. I'm taking it with me."

I didn't even protest. He was right. He did pay for it; and even if I put up a fight I would most likely end up being the one hurt from the whole situation. 

"Give me the keys." I wasn't moving fast enough so he snatched my purse and dumped out its contents on the ground until he found the keys.

"Thanks babe." This time he grabbed my face and held it so tight that I thought he was going to break it. When he kissed me I bite his lip causing him to back hand me. I went tumbling towards the ground once again. "I always knew you were a stupid bitch." He laughed once more after wiping the blood from his bottom lip.
He climbed in my car; or shall I say his car and threw up the deuces sign before pulling out of the driveway.

"What am I going to do?" I whispered. I have no money because I got fired from my job. Gino was like my savior. He was helping me out with all the bills, taking me shopping, and making sure I had everything I needed. But now I have nothing. No car, house, or money. My dad past away last year from a stroke and my mom is sick. So I couldn't ask her. All of her money is going towards all of her treatments and surgeries. Synovia is out of the question. I would never ask her. Last but not least Princess. I couldn't stay with her because I'm absolutely positive that Gino wouldn't allow it. I continued to cry until a car pulled up in my driveway. It was pizza hut. I was no longer in the mood to eat. But I knew I had to for the sake of my baby.

Chapter 6
(
Princess)

“Man quit fucking playing.” 
RYAN
 stated prior to sucking his teeth while he flung my arm away so that he could at least attempt to unbutton my pants again.
“I’m not playing. I’m serious as hell this time.” I declared knowing that my statement was going to make him madder than he already was.
“Either you want the dick or you don’t. Which is it?” He stated with a smirk. He and I both knew what my answer was going to be.
“You know I want it daddy. But---.”
“But what?” He cut me off. I tried getting up but he pulled me back down towards his lap so that I was straddling him once again.
“You know that I can’t let you fuck raw. You almost slipped up last time. We were so caught up that you almost didn’t pull out.”
“Ok but I did. So what the fuck are you worried about? I’m not about to try and get you pregnant. Gino is my boy and Whitney is like a sister to you. I’m not trying to do anything to jeopardize that okay. I’m going to pull out okay? I promise.”
“But baby can’t you just run to the store right quick and get some condoms?”
“Hell no. I’m horny as fuck right now. Don’t act like you don’t feel me standing at attention.”
He was right. He was standing at attention and I was going to be the person who calmed “him” down a bit; if you know what I mean.
“Okay this is the last time. Next time you better come prepared.”
“I got to fly back to see Whitney in the morning. She thinks I’m here on business so I don’t want to make her suspicious. I’ll be back in a week. So you better make this good. Make me remember why I keep coming back to this pussy.”
“Oh I can definitely do that.” I affirmed between kisses.
I led him to the bed room and showed him everything he wanted to see. We fucked in every position you can imagine. He ended up not pulling out though. He’s lucky I’m taking birth control pills.
Yes he’s Gino’s best friend but I don’t give a damn. I’m in love with Ryan. I just use Gino’s bitch ass for his money.

Chapter 7 (Kiara)

That was the last of it. I only had two days left before I had to move out of the place that I’ve called home for so many years. I made sure I packed up everything; leaving nothing out.

All I knew was that I didn’t even have enough for the rent. I was so stupid. I depended mostly on everybody but myself. My mama taught me better than this. Here I was standing in the middle of my living room that was now surrounded by huge brown boxes wondering how in the hell I landed myself in this predicament. I allowed myself to become dick whipped basically.

I quit my damn job and even though I begged them for my spot back, they turned me down; but I don’t blame them. I did save money in my account but once I went to the bank, they said that my accounts had been frozen meaning that Gino obviously had something to do with it. I literally got on my hands and knees and begged them to un-freeze my account but they said they didn’t have the
authority
to do it. Gino has power over every one so that means that no matter what I said or did, I would still end up right back at square one.

I was a tad bit hungry. My stomach began to rumble so I gathered the little money that I did have and walked a couple blocks up the road to McDonalds. A big Mac is just what I needed to ease my mind. Just for a little while. I happened to see a boy; well actually he was a man. He was putting up some sort of flyers. I figured that they were only for some silly party that he was most likely throwing. He walked from pole to pole, stapling the colorful flyers to each one. As I got closer, I reached out and grabbed one to see if I was right about him only throwing a party.