Scarred Hearts (Blackrock) (40 page)

I watch Knox get off his bike; he has a sour expression on his face. Great, as he walks up the steps he smiles "Darlin" "Hi, what you doing here?" I ask as he puts his arms around me "Sorry about earlier, I didn't even hear you leave" I shrug "That's ok I figured you had other things on your mind". He looks at me like he doesn't believe me "What?" I say to him "Are you mad but pretending not be?" he pulls me closer to him "No Knox I am not mad at all, now that you are here you might as well meet my dad" I grab his hand before he can protest pulling him into the house. He is trying to stop me but I won't let him "Dad where are you?" I call out "Where you left me" he shouts back to me. Pulling Knox along we walk into the kitchen "Dad this is Knox, my boyfriend and my other good news" I say pointing to him "Knox, this is my dad Frank Mortenson" they shake hands and say hello. My dad offers us coffee but we both decline, Dad asks Knox about school and his Harley.

After about thirty minutes dad excuses himself to bed. "So it wasn't that bad" I say to Knox who laughs "No, it wasn't he is cool" I give him a kiss "So why are you really here?" I see him chew his lip before answering "I called you but didn't answer so I came here to see how pissed at me you were" I laugh at him "babe I am not pissed at you and I don't know where my phone is, probably up in my room" I rest my hand on his cheek and he shrugs "Ok if you say so darlin I better go I have to do some homework" as he stands up and I put my arms around his neck "Hey we can always go out into the woods for a quickie before you go" I tease wiggling my eyebrows. Knox kisses my forehead "Maybe another time" he says rubbing my arms before turning away, I walk him to the door now getting annoyed "Ok see you tomorrow" I say closing the door before he answers me.

Walking up to my room I hear my phone "What Knox" I answer. "Your mad now huh?" "Yes and I will see you tomorrow, love you" he sighs "Yeah bye" he says hanging up on me. The next few days go by fast; Paige and I start our project, which is going well. I have only heard from Knox twice since Monday I decided he needed some time to get himself together. It's now Friday and I am almost done "Hey you coming to the bar tonight?" Paige asks me "I don't know haven't decided yet" I answer while typing. "Are you and Knox on the outs?" I look over at her "No I just gave him some time alone, he texted me yesterday" Paige looks at me with concern "Are you sure you guys are ok?" "Yes Paige I am sure, unless you know something I don't" I say packing up my computer. She just smiles "Let me know if you are coming out tonight"

"Ok see you later" I say leaving the classroom. I run over to the library to try to catch Knox, I miss him so much but I tried not to crowd him this week. Walking inside I give my eyes a minute to adjust, looking around I spot him and a few guys sitting at a table in the corner. Walking over I hear them joking around, One of the guys turns to Knox "Oh no someone is in trouble" all the guys laugh when Knox looks up. I wave to him hoping I didn't make a mistake coming in here. Knox looks at me without expression, shit, now what did I do. I take a deep breath walking over to him "Hi babe" I say nervously.

Knox reaches out to me pulling me between his legs "Hey darlin where have you been all week? I thought you were ignoring me" putting my hands on his shoulders I lean down to him "No way babe you are not getting rid of me that easily" he cracks one of his amazing smiles and I feel my insides melt and sit on his knee. "I missed you all week," I say to him "Yeah I missed you too" he crushes his lips to mine kissing me like a man starved. "Hey Romeo you coming to class?" one of the guys ask him.

I break the kiss "You better go babe, I am done for today" he groans "I forgot I don't get to hang with you on Friday "Are you coming out tonight? I will be singing to you" laughing I stand up "Yes I will be there to watch you serenade me" we walk to the door holding hands he pulls him to me again "Ok darlin I will see you tonight, love you" he kisses my head before walking away. I see Eric one of the guys from the band talking to a girl with brown hair they are laughing until Knox walks by them. I see her watch him for a minute then turn back to Eric who is looking at me. He waves and I wave back seeing the girls face, Lindsey. So she is back in school now.

This week just went from bad to worse in a heartbeat. Heading to the mall for some retail therapy I desperately need. I go into my favorite store to browse through the clothes. I am not feeling it today so I leave, walking around the mall I go into a store I don't usually shop in, I find a beautiful corset top in purple satin with tiny flowers embossed on it. I pick up a white mini skirt and some chunky bracelets, after my purchase I head home, my savings are getting very low so I will need a job in the new year. Passing through town I see Max and Knox crossing from campus to the bar I beep at them and wave. They both turn and wave but neither smiles. Oh man, do I really need this drama in my life right now.

Paige has been texting me all evening asking if I am going to the bar, I keep ignoring her. "Hey sweetheart you staying in tonight?" my dad asks as he hears my phone beep again. "Why? Trying to get rid of me?" I ask closing my computer "Yes Bailey, your are a nineteen year old woman get out and act like one" I just shake my head "Fine I am going" I say leaving the room.

I decide to wear my new clothes and just leave my hair down, Paige has texted me twice in the last hour so I return her text telling her I will be there.

By ten o'clock I arrive at the bar to a packed house and Knox singing his heart out only he is singing his angry music. Walking to our end of the bar I see Paige looking lonely "Hi Paige why are you looking so down tonight?" she snaps her head up at me "Thank god Bailey, I am dying for a drink and someone is here" she nods over to the corner booth. Looking over I see Lindsey and some friends watching Knox sing. This is not happening, I see Lucy walk by me and grab her arm "Lucy don't you dare ignore me tonight" I say to her ordering drinks for Paige and I and two beers for the guys, I know they will be off stage soon.

Paige smiles at me "damn Bailey you are freaking on fire tonight, oh and I love your top" "Yeah thanks, I just got it today". About thirty minutes later Knox stops singing as he steps down from the stage Lindsey is on him grabbing his arm talking in his ear. He stops for a minute listening to her until Max pushes him from behind over to the bar. I watch as he runs his hand through his hair, I hold out a beer to him as he arrives at the bar "Hey darling I didn't see you get in" he smiles wrapping his arms around me "Hi babe, I have been here a while" he kisses me "You look beautiful tonight" he says nuzzling my ear putting my arms around him "You smell different tonight" I say to him noticing his cologne is not the same. "I ran out so I took some of Max's" brushing his hair out of his eyes I kiss him again. He is only looking at me "You ok?" I say he shrugs pulling me closer so I can feel how hard he is "I am now that you are here"

"Knox what did she say to you?" he pulls a sour face "Nothing I want to hear darlin" he runs his hands up and down my ribs looking right down at my chest "Nice top Bailey, the view is wonderful" he chuckles at me "yeah I bought it today hoping to bag a guy at the bar" "well you don't need to bag a guy I hear Sean is single" he teases me. Looking around I spot Sean "Oh yeah I see him now, maybe I will let him explore my new skirt too" Knox is smiling at me as I take my drink "I will kick his ass if he even looks at you" he says. He is really acting strange tonight, he never usually holds me this much or looks only at me but I'll take it. "Hey babe, I spoke with my dad during the week and he doesn't mind you staying over on weekends" I say into his ear; he chokes on his beer, coughing all over me. When he is finished he looks up at me wiping his mouth with the back of his hand "Seriously?" I just laugh at him "Yes seriously, so are you staying tonight?" he pulls me back into him kissing me deeply, plunging his tongue inside my mouth taking everything I have to give. When he pulls back he rests his forehead on mine "Yes darlin I really miss going to bed with you"

"I miss it too," I say. We stay in each other's arms for the whole twenty-minute break; Knox is constantly kissing me between drinking his beer. Max kisses Paige and taps Knox on the arm "Let's finish this bro" Knox nods kissing me one more time before going back on stage. "Is he ok? I have never seen him cling on to you like that" Paige says when he leaves. "I know but I don't mind, lets dance" I say to her walking to the dance floor. Knox is singing some rock song as we arrive; he smiles at me while I dance for him.

He and Max say something between songs to each other both nodding strumming their guitars. Knox sings my song "Your body is a wonderland" right to me winking and smiling at me the whole time. We are in a world of our own for those three minutes. Paige and I dance for the rest of the night enjoying ourselves and all I can think about is getting Knox home to bed.

By the end of the night my feet hurt from dancing, Knox and Max empty the bar quickly then clear away their guitars, Max asks Knox to lock up while he takes Paige home. The three of us step outside hearing Knox bolt the lock behind us "So I will see you guys tomorrow" Paige hugs me goodbye and I watch them cross the road before I turn the corner walking along the side of the bar towards my car. I can hear shouting from behind the bar so I walk over taking out my phone just in case I have to call Knox. Reaching the corner I hear a woman shouting "Just kiss me then" what the heck was that about I ask myself turning the last corner.

As I do my whole world shatters, grabbing onto the wall to stop myself from falling I drop my phone and feel my heart explode into a million tiny pieces, Knox and Lindsey are kissing, full on hands in her hair up against the wall kissing. What the fuck, I can hardly breath my throat is constricted, my eyes are burning with tears as I look at them. He pushes her away breathing hard; I bend down to get my phone. He must have seen the movement because when I stand up he is staring at me, his face in shock. Turning I run back to my car, I get in as fast as I can pulling out onto the road, Knox is banging on my passenger side window but I drive away not stopping. The tears are burning my eyes but I refuse to let them fall, there's no way I am crying. I feel sick as swing my car around the corners of the hills; my hands are sweating and slipping on the wheel seeing a turnout I screech to a stop opening the door to retch before I wreck my car. Climbing onto my hands and knees I retch again, my body shaking uncontrollably. Why did he do it? Why now?

Knox

Getting on stage I still don't see Bailey, I have had Paige text her for that last hour but she hasn't replied. We didn't see each other all week and now I am desperate to feel her in my arms. Lindsey arrived a while ago with some other chicks from our class; I don't know why she is here. She needs to be banned but my uncle refuses saying she did nothing wrong, what a fucking asshole. I sing with every ounce of anger I have toward her hoping she will get the message, I don't look her way at all but keep my eye on the door to see if Bailey will come in.

By the time we finish the first set I am missing my girl I need to call her just to hear her beautiful voice. Walking to the bar I feel someone grab my arm, I am just about to smile when I see her touching me "Let go of me" I snarl at her "Knox just hear me out, we need to talk. I am sorry for what I did to you" just as I'm about to tell her to shove her apology Max pushes me forward. I can't deal with this shit tonight I need a drink, which suddenly appears in front of me, looking up to see Bailey with a beer for me. Jesus I never thought I would be so happy to see her, I can't keep my hands off her or my eyes above her neck, damn she has her tits on full display all I want to do is bury my face in them.

I tease her about her top, loving the way she gives it back to me. Then she blows my mind telling me I can stay over because her dad said its cool, holy crap did I just hear that right. I can stay with her on weekends; all I can say is thank fuck its Friday! She just made my whole night. I can't keep my lips from hers I want to devour her right here until Max spoils my fun. We sing our first song but I change the second so I can sing to my girl as she dances before me, man I love her.

We finish our set for the night I look around noticing that Lindsey left. Max and I clear the bar pretty fast tonight; Max is heading back with Paige so I lock up behind them. Doing a quick walk through making sure the restrooms are empty and nothing was left behind, turning off the lights I head out back. I see someone standing there thinking its Bailey but she is taller and with her sexy ass heals on tonight is my height so that is not her "Knox we need to talk" I hear that familiar voice setting my nerves on end. "No we don't go away Lindsey we are over, a long time ago" I can't believe she is around here like a fucking stalker "Look Knox I am sorry for the way I treated you. I stopped seeing him that day too, I never meant to do it. It was just a kiss here and there then things got out of control" she has her hands on her hips shouting at me.

"You don't need to shout and I don't need to hear it. I have moved on" I tell her watching her face change from sorrow to anger "Yeah I saw her at the bar, I didn't know you were into hookers" typical chick shit "Fuck you Lindsey, I love her and you know what, loving her shows me I never loved you" I spit back at her stepping out of the door. She rushes me knocking me off balance hitting my back against the door "Kiss me and prove it" she tells me "Lindsey get off me now" I would never put my hands on a woman but she is getting my blood boiling, I can feel all the anger surfacing again and I want to hurt her the way she hurt me "I would love nothing better than to show you how much I hate you" I say through clenched teeth into her face.

Lindsey leans into my face shouting "Just kiss me then" Grabbing her hair I pull her closer I know I am holding her tight as I crush my lips to hers, kissing with every ounce of hatred and anger in me. My lips are in agony but I welcome the pain now she will know, know that I hate her with every ounce of my soul. I push her away from me about to tell her never to come near me again when I catch someone bending down by the corner, as they stand up I see my girl looking at me. Shit! How long as been standing there? I can see every bit of pain plan on her face and in her eyes as I stare at her. What the fuck did I just do? Bailey takes off running I try to go after her but Lindsey grabs me "Knox don't" pulling my arm out of reach I don't stay to hear the rest of her shit.