Growling at him I panted. “I’m infuriating? You’re the one that keeps walking himself right back into my life! You’re back and forth so much you’re making me dizzy. It’s cruel, unfair and I hate the way you make me feel whenever you’re around me. It’s making me crazy.” “ You want to talk about crazy? Telling me you’re with some other guy, wearing that dress tonight and then falling asleep in my arms didn’t just drive me crazy Layla, I’m bordering on psychotic! I’m so fucking hot for you.” Squaring up to him I snarled. “You can’t just waltz in here and expect me to bend over begging for you. I was done with that a long time ago.” His lips parted and I could see the ghost of a grin. “ Really? Because from where I was laying it sounded like you were just getting started.” He had heard me. I stood close enough that I could feel his hard breath on my lips. “ Fuck you!” Gripping his hand on my behind he held me flush against him and I gasped. “No, but I am going to fuck you.” Sliding his hand around my neck he pulled me to him, closing his mouth over mine. Wrapping my arms around his neck I dragged him into the bedroom, kicking the door closed with my foot. His hands slid over my shoulders slipping the straps of my bra down my arms in the process. Kissing me deeply, he murmured into my mouth. “God you make me so fucking mad.” The feeling was mutual as the ever familiar fire in my belly roared into an inferno. The well-known feeling of his hands on my body and the pleasurable sensations of his kiss provoked emotions inside me that I thought were buried. His hands reached behind my back and unhooked my bra as he guided me towards the bed. The back of my knees hit the edge and I fell back, landing with a bounce on the firm mattress. Peeling my bra over my arms, he tossed it across the room and placed his hands firmly around my back, lifting me up the bed so that my head was resting comfortably on a pillow. His lips pressed against mine and the scent of vanilla, sweet cologne and sex filled my senses with the powerful and pungent aphrodisiac that was Jared’s natural aroma. Hooking my thumbs into the waist of his shorts, I gave them a sharp push downwards. Obliging me, he slid them down over his behind, releasing his impressive erection. Grasping it in my hand I ran my fingers up and down the full length of him. He groaned into my mouth and my insides clenched deliciously. His fingers threaded through my hair as his tongue rolled and stroked inside my mouth. Coming up for air, I stared at the ceiling as his lips trailed soft kisses over my jaw to my neck. His tongue flicked and licked across my collar bone and a moan escaped my lips. Gradually and oh so achingly slowly, he kissed his way down to my breasts. Arching my back, I thrust my ample breasts to his lips as his mouth closed over my nipple, sucking, nipping and licking the pert and puckered tip. Gripping a fistful of his hair in my hand, I grasped the sheet with the other as his mouth on my breast sent a direct message to my sex. I was practically begging for his hard long cock to slip inside me. Grazing his splayed fingers over my stomach, his mouth followed the trail of his soft fingertips down my wanting skin. Gripping my thighs, his tongue dipped into my navel and I gasped, bowing and writhing in his hands. “Oh Jared.” I could feel him smile against my skin. “I know baby. I’m going to take care of you. I’ll make it all good again.” I could barely hear his words as my heart thundered so loud it was pounding in my ears. His thumbs slid inside the delicate lace of my panties and tugged them down and over my behind. Running his nose up my slit his tongue grazed the fleshy lips. I groaned, desperate for him to give me what I needed, what I ached for, since the moment I’d see him in that suit. He must have heard my mental plea because the next thing I knew, my panties were in shreds beside me and his long hard cock thrust inside me, making me cry out with pure unadulterated gratification. His hips rocked back and forth as I grinded and writhed beneath him, matching him thrust for thrust. I was brimming with lust and my body was almost levitating off of the bed as his arms wrapped tightly around me lifting me close to his chest. His mouth closed over mine and I pressed my palms firmly around the back of his neck, pulling him close and deepening our kiss. The muscles inside me pulsated and convulsed as his tip brushed against my g-spot. Running my hands down his broad back, I gripped my fingernails tightly into his behind. My thumb rubbed gently over the raised letters of my name tattooed into his luscious caramel skin. A deep and carnal moan came from my throat as the pre-orgasmic waves began to crash and roll through my body. “Don’t stop Jared, I’m so close.” His face buried in my neck, he bit down on my shoulder as he slammed into me over and over, making me jolt and bounce back and forth beneath him. “I’ve missed you so much Layla. Your eyes, your hot, sexy, tight little body beneath mine and this wet, delicious cunt. I need you to come with me Layla. I want to feel how much you’ve missed my cock right here.” He thrust hard into me twice as the words left his lips. Clutching his flesh in my hands, I cried out his name as my orgasm flushed through me like a tidal wave of erotic bliss. Thrashing into me a few more times he stilled and held me in a tight embrace against his chest. Lying beneath him with my eyes closed, I listened to the frantic beat of my heart and the rapid panting of our breaths. His forehead pressed against my shoulder where his teeth had left a slight imprint. Resting my cheek against his sweat soaked hair, I could feel the tears pooling in my eyes. They slid warmly and silently down my cheeks and onto his face. Lifting himself onto his elbows he gazed down at me and wiped my tears with his thumbs. “What’s wrong?” Rolling over and out from under him I curled into the fetal position, buried my face in my hands and sobbed uncontrollably. His arms snaked around my waist as he pulled me against him so that our bodies lay spooning against one another. Brushing the hair from my face, he kissed my cheek and hushed me. “ Shhh, baby, come on, it’s alright. Layla stop please, I can’t stand to see you cry like this.” Turning to face him I looked into his piercing blue eyes and sniffled, swiping the tears from my cheeks. “I’m a whore Jared. A cheating, lying whore.” Holding my head to his chest he shook his head. “No Layla. I won’t tolerate you talking about yourself that way. Why would you even think that?” “ Jared, I’m dating Oliver and I just had sex with you! Tell me there’s not something completely sick about everything I did tonight.” “ Layla I love you. I love you with every fiber of my being and what we just did, making love, was nothing but an act of that deep passionate emotion. I know you love me too so what we just did wasn’t wrong. It’s the only right thing I’ve done in months.” Turning away from him I snuggled down into my pillow and continued to cry. My mess had just turned into a bomb site. “Please leave me alone Jared. I need to be by myself.” Taking his arms from around my waist he begrudgingly left the bed. Standing at the door he glanced back at me and raked his fingers through his hair shaking his head. “I love you Layla. I can’t be sorry for making love to you. I just wish you weren’t sorry for wanting it.” Closing my eyes, I sobbed into my pillow and as the door closed behind him, I felt the breaking of my heart as fresh as it had been all those months ago. I should have listened to the warnings, should have stayed away and protected myself but most of all I should have chosen Ollie that night.
Chapter 42
Unfaithful
I woke feeling numb. I must have laid there for over an hour just staring at the ceiling. I could hear Jared moving about downstairs and I knew he’d had as little sleep as I had. Thinking over the events of our night together sent a shiver up my spine and as I looked at the clock, I knew I didn’t have much time. I needed to get home, back to the dorms and wait for Ollie. My stomach churned as I thought over what I might say, do and feel when I saw him. Getting out of bed I headed to the bathroom and quickly showered before scooping up my clothes. My torn panties on the floor were a bitter reminder of my betrayal. Snatching them up I dumped them in the trash where they and I belonged. That’s all I was, cheap trash. Jared had brought me a pair of his shorts to wear in their place and slipping them on I couldn’t help but feel dirty. Once I was dressed I made my way to the kitchen. Standing with his palms on the countertop, dressed in his black pants and white t-shirt, was Jared. He was staring out of the window and the hard hitting and soulful voice of Amy Winehouse echoed over the sound system. The words hit me like arrows in the heart. Singing about still loving someone in the morning after a night of passion, her words could have been written about the two of us and I understood his song choice immediately. I’d wanted, ached and needed him that night and yet now I was detached and closed off from him. My heart was too afraid to feel, for fear of shattering into millions of tiny shards; and my own sadness and hatred of myself consumed me as I stood in the door way. “I need to go home. Ollie will be back soon.” Hanging his head he nodded but continued to face away from me. “ Will you tell him?” A lump formed in my throat as I stared at him. His body was tense and his voice was filled with pain. “Yes. I have to. I can’t lie to him. It’ll hurt, but it’ll hurt more if I keep it from him.” “ Do you love him?” Tears welling in my eyes I swallowed hard. “Jared.” Clenching his fist he slammed it on the counter. “ Just. Answer the question Layla. I need to hear it.” He turned to face me, his eyes full of pain, anger and darkness. “ I can’t love him.” I stared down at my hands as I mindlessly rubbed and stroked my right hand where his ring had once been. “Because I could never stop loving you.” He winced and I knew my words were bitter sweet. There was a ‘but’ hanging in the air and we both knew it only too well. “But it doesn’t change anything. I can’t be with you Jared. My heart aches from what we did last night. Us, our history, it still hurts too much.” Walking over to him I placed my hand over his chest and taking his pendant from his neck I lifted it over his head. Holding it in my palm I pressed my forehead against his and let out a long breath. The diamond sparkled in the light and the inscription gleamed. “ You have to let me go. We have to let this go. Or we’ll tear each other apart.” Tears rolled down his cheek and cupping his face in my hands I brushed them away with my thumbs before placing a chaste kiss on his lips. Releasing him, I dropped the pendant on the countertop and walked away. The Mercedes was parked on the driveway and seeing me approaching through the foyer, Daniel opened the passenger door. A loud smash reverberated through the hall and I glanced back toward the kitchen holding my breath. But he wasn’t coming after me this time. It was over. Closing the door behind me, I walked out to the car and slid in. The moment the door was closed, I fell apart. Respecting my need for privacy, Daniel slid the screen between us allowing me to sob and cry my heart out alone in the back seat. The drive back to dorm was the longest journey of my life and as we pulled into the parking lot my heart plummeted as a hot red, gleaming Ducati caught my eye. I felt nauseous and my insides twisted as grief swept through me. Opening the door, Daniel gave me a sympathetic look. “Take care Miss Jennings.” I nodded. “Thank you Daniel. Take care of him for me. He needs someone to care about him.” Tipping his hat he got in and drove away, leaving me alone on the sidewalk. The whole place was deserted as it always was on a Sunday morning. Staring at the ground, I walked slowly to the entrance of the building. I froze, glued to the spot as I came face to face with Ollie. Sitting on the ground, with his arms wrapped around his knees, he stared at me with the saddest brown eyes I’d ever seen. Tears threatened again as I swallowed hard, gulping my sorrow down into my chest where it constricted and left me breathless. Tears were in his eyes and from the red and blotchy patches on his cheeks I knew he’d been crying. Sniffling and shuddering through my tears, I sobbed. Pressing my hand over my mouth as each heart wrenching sound left my lips. “I missed you so I came back early. I went upstairs and when you weren’t there I made Amy tell me where you were. She told me about your dinner. And then you pulled up in his car, well I guess I don’t have to ask. That paired with the distraught look on your face right now tells me all I need to know.” Swiping his own tears away with his hands he stared at me shaking his head. “ I’m sorry Ollie. I’m so sorry. I never planned for it to happen. I swear.” Looking away he let out a snort of laughter. “I never stood a chance did I Layla? It was always going to be him. You were never going to be mine. I was kidding myself.”