Addicted to Him (17 page)

“I’ll stay,” I whisper, closing my eyes. I can’t bear to look him in the eyes when I know I might be lying. He grips my shoulders and moves himself back inside me. It only takes one stroke to feel my orgasm start at the tips of my toes and work its way up my body until it stops in between my legs, making me groan with pleasure. An instant later, I feel goose bumps pop up all over Seth’s arms as he yells my name then collapses on my chest.

As I drift asleep in his arms, I try not to think about the fact that I’m no better than Whit and Ethan right now.

Chapter Ten

“Good morning, gorgeous,” I hear Seth say as I stir and open my eyes.

“Morning,” I say, trying not to blow my nasty morning breath on him. He rests his head on my chest and I run my fingers through his hair, knowing I’ve never been happier in my life. If I could wake up like this every day of my life I wouldn’t need anything else.

“Can I spend the whole day with you?” he asks sweetly.

I forgot that he gets Sundays off and I’m nearly delirious at the thought of having him to myself all day long. “I’d love that.”

“I’ll do anything you want, on one condition,” he says, propping his chin on my chest to look at me. He looks serious and it makes me remember the lie I told him last night. “Are you really going to stay?”

Apparently, I’m not as good of a liar as I thought I was since Seth obviously had doubts about my sincerity last night. But watching him gaze down at me, feeling so happy, I know that I have to start looking out for myself from now on. As much as I love Wade, I’m not his mother and I can’t keep myself in an abusive situation just to be close to him.

I run my hands over Seth’s cheeks and through his hair, knowing I’m making the right decision. I have to make myself happy for a change and living here and being with Seth makes me very happy.

My nipples ache for him to touch them and I push my chest out, tempting him to take one in his mouth. I can feel his breath on my hardened nipple.

“Do you really want me to stay?” I tease. I know I’m not really in control of our relationship but after the news about Chastity and Phil’s happy vacation without me and the bombshell about Ethan and Whit, not to mention the courage I’m going to need to work up to ask Dad if I can stay, I need to feel in control even if it’s just for a moment.

“I want to be with you forever,” he answers breathlessly, licking the tip of his finger and touching my nipple with it.

A surge of electricity races between my legs and the only thing I can think about is Seth being inside me. “I’m going to talk to my dad about staying. I can’t promise that he’ll say yes, but I want to stay.” I won’t flat out lie to Seth again. I don’t want to be like Chastity. It’s the best answer that I can give him.

He stares down at me intently and I can’t tell what he’s thinking. Part of me wishes I would have just lied like I did last night so that I made him happy. I move my hands up and down his back, waiting for him to respond.

“Do you want to stay or do you want to stay with me?” he asks finally.

“I want to stay with you more than I’ve ever wanted anything in my life,” I profess, arching my body underneath him, a fire burning between my legs for him.

He drives his tongue into my mouth with such force that I know he believes me. I reach down and tug on his hardness, wanting him inside me.

“I want you inside of me, Seth,” I beg, grabbing at him. He gently lowers my arms to my sides and starts kissing my neck.

“Don’t worry, beautiful. I’m just getting warmed up,” he teases, sliding further down my body. I feel his lips kissing the insides of my legs. He gives me a mischievous wink then I feel his tongue dart inside me and I almost scream with pleasure.

I watch him slide his tongue in and out of me while gripping my ass, his eyes smiling, knowing that he has total control of me. Normally I would be completely freaked out about having no control in a situation, but I completely trust Seth. I give myself over to him letting him take me wherever he chooses. He starts fingering my clit while plunging his tongue into me and I know I can’t hold out much longer.

“Seth, I want to come together,” I moan, but he doesn’t let up. I realize this must be what he wants so I give in to the waves of pleasure rippling through my body. “Oh, God, Seth, I’m coming for you.”

Mini earthquakes rock through my body making me jerk uncontrollably until the last one subsides leaving a feeling of exhaustion sliding over me, making my limbs weak.

He moves back up to me with a smirk on his face, obviously proud of himself. I smile back weakly, knowing now that I’ve tasted a little bit of Seth it will never be enough. I spread my legs apart, tempting him.

“You belong to me now,” he says, taking one of my nipples in his mouth.

I nod, knowing that I would never want to belong to anyone else.

****

“I want you to meet my mom,” Seth announces as we are spooning on the couch watching a movie. I’m thankful that my back is facing him so that he can’t see my shock but I’m pretty sure my whole body tensing up like I was being electrocuted might have given me away.

“Why?” I blurt out.

“Because I love you and I want her to meet the girl I’m going to spend the rest of my life with,” he says easily.

“What if she doesn’t like me?” Ethan’s mom was always polite but I always felt like she was silently judging me for being Chastity’s daughter. But I guess I don’t have to worry about that with Seth’s mom. She won’t know anything about me besides what I tell her.

“She’ll love you,” he says, squeezing me. “I told her we would be there for dinner at six tonight.”

“Tonight?” I shout, raising up off the couch.

“What’s wrong?”

A million thoughts go whirring through my mind. Like the fact that his mother obviously knows he didn’t stay at home the last two nights and she is going to think I’m a total slut. I never even gave it a thought before because I figured I would just skate out of here at the end of the summer and that would be it. But if I’m actually staying here and going to be with Seth, I don’t want her to think bad of me.

“I want her to like me. I have to fix something to take tonight and pick out an outfit. Everything has to be perfect.” I fly through the living room and into the kitchen to try and scrounge up ingredients for a dessert to take.

****

I couldn’t even enjoy our day together because I was so nervous about dinner tonight. Now that the moment is finally here, I’m about to have a stroke from the stress.

“Will you please calm down?” Seth urges, grabbing my hand as we pull into a quaint subdivision across town from Dad’s house. Seth slows in front of a two story yellow house with a white wrap-around porch. Bikes and toys are strewn on the lawn and the grass is much higher than the neighbors but I immediately love it.

“Have you lived here all your life?”

“Yep, it ain’t much, but it’s ours,” he replies, shutting off his car. He leaps out and runs over to my side. He opens the door and takes the dessert dish out of my lap. I make myself get out of the car even though I have an urge to jog home.

Seth leads the way up the walk and through the front door.

“I’m home,” he announces as we walk into the foyer.

Ava and Henry come flying around the corner and bury themselves into Seth’s legs. I realize, guiltily, that I’ve been keeping them from him the last few days.

“You look pretty, Cassidy,” Ava announces, peeking up from her brother’s leg. I knew my choice of outfit would either get an F or an A from Ava, and I’m thankful it’s the latter.

“Thank you, Ava. You look pretty, too,” I tell her, noticing the Ring Pop on her finger that would account for the blue stains around her mouth and on her tongue.

“I hope you guys haven’t been eating too much candy since I’ve been gone,” Seth says, looking at them suspiciously.

“Cassidy, come look at my Lego’s,” Henry says, masterfully changing the subject. Seth winks at me as Henry takes my hand and leads me into the living room. He has a giant plastic container filled with thousands of Lego’s and he encourages me to build something. I sit down and start work on a miniature castle hoping this buys me some time before meeting Seth’s mom.

I hear Seth and Ava make their way into the kitchen and an unfamiliar voice shout in surprise. A few moments later, a tiny woman not much taller than Ava bursts into the room.

“Cassidy, it’s so nice to meet you,” she says, barreling through the piles of toys to get to me. She wraps her arms around me and gives me a good squeeze before I even know what’s going on. “I’m Connie. I’m so glad you’re here.”

I almost start crying at the sincere gesture. A few weeks ago I probably would have jerked away but her arms feel like a warm blanket around me. Seth’s love is healing me so that I’m not revolted by everyone’s touch. I feel like a new person.

“Thank you for having me,” I tell her, hugging her back. She pulls away and examines me from head to toe.

“You’re even prettier than he described.”

I blush, embarrassed that Seth has been talking about me but delighted at the same time.

“I hope I haven’t kept him away. I know you depend on him to help you with the business and the twins.”

“He puts a lot of pressure on himself, and I was really worried about him, but now that you’ve come along he’s like the old Seth all over again and nothing makes me happier.”

She leads me into the kitchen where Seth is busy setting the table. I take a seat in between Henry and Ava admiring the personalized place setting that they have made for me. Connie sets a giant pan of cheesy lasagna and gooey garlic bread down in front of us and we each take turns serving ourselves.

The dinner is peaceful, just like at Dad’s house, with just enough conversation and quiet. I giggle watching the twins dissect the lasagna only eating the parts they deem edible. Seth winks at me and I realize how stupid I was to be so worried about tonight. I guess growing up with Chastity has made me fearful of meeting any new people. I can’t imagine what she’ll put Wade’s future girlfriends through.

After dinner we all pile into the living room to watch a movie. The twins choose
Despicable Me
, but both end up falling asleep about halfway through it. Seth carries them to bed one at a time. My heart almost melts at the sight of him cradling them in his arms.

“Is Seth staying with you tonight?” Connie asks when Seth is upstairs.

“Um…I don’t…um…,” I struggle to get the words out. I want Seth to stay because Dad and Lisa are going to be back tomorrow so it’s our last night together but I feel like trash telling this nice woman that just fed me dinner that I want her son to sleep over so I can do unmentionable things to him all night.

“Sweetie, I wasn’t born yesterday. I get it. It’s fine, just promise me you’re using protection because I’m not ready to be a grandma,” she says with a laugh. She waves good-bye then heads up the stairs.

Seth comes down a few minutes later and gestures for me to follow him. I notice he’s carrying more things and my heart leaps realizing that he’s staying with me. I can’t imagine going back to not having him in my bed every night. I suppose I’ll have to, but for now, I still have one night to look forward to.

I climb into his car and we take off back toward Dad’s. Seth smiles over at me and takes my hand.

“She loves you,” he assures me.

“She’s awesome.”

“Yes, she is. My dad is a total douche for walking out on her. I hope he’s miserable,” he says, getting visibly angry.

“It’s his loss. At least she has you and the twins. He’s the loser,” I say, trying to console him but I know what it’s like to have someone completely knock your world off balance.

“I fucking hate him,” he says, punching his steering wheel.

I get quiet, not knowing exactly what to say. I know that Seth has to work through the pain on his own, I just wish it didn’t have to be on our last night together. He pulls into my driveway in record time and bolts out of the car, grabbing his stuff.

I get out and walk to the front door with him behind me, fury coming off of him in waves. For the most part I love that he is so intense but sometimes, like now, it kind of scares me. I unlock the door and step inside. Seth tosses his bag onto the velvet couch and stomps into the kitchen. I hear the refrigerator open and a can of soda being opened.

I deadbolt the door and start upstairs to my room. I’ve only been with Seth for a few weeks but I know when to leave him alone and now is one of those times. I know that if I just give him a minute he’ll come find me and apologize. I just hope he doesn’t waste too much of our night.

I step out of my clothes and walk to the bathroom. I turn on the shower as hot as I can stand and step inside. I’m not even dirty but I’m hoping that Seth will fulfill my shower fantasy if he can pull himself out of his mood.

I lather up my loofah with body wash and suds myself up from head to toe. I’m in the middle of rinsing when I hear his footsteps on the stairs. My whole body tightens with anticipation knowing that he is near me. I watch him walk into the bathroom through the glass shower doors.

“Get in,” I order, turning my back on him. I hear his clothes drop to the floor and the shower door slide open. I turn around after I hear him close the shower door.

“Cassidy, I’m sorry,” he says, looking pitiful. I put my finger to his lips and start kissing down his body. I move him under the water then get on my knees in front of him. I make my way down his body, rubbing my nipples on the insides of his legs. He groans, his head tilted back in the water. I tease the head of his penis with the tip of my tongue then slowly suck him into my mouth.

He braces his arms against the shower as I take him further and further into my wet mouth. I grab his ass and pump him in and out of my mouth, loving that I’m driving him crazy. He starts grabbing for me, but I refuse to stop. I never did this for Ethan, the thought revolted me even before the Phil stuff started, but everything is different with Seth. I want to do everything for him, and with him.